The way things are now, the way things have been going lately with just everything is just great. I don’t want to talk abut it because I’m so afraid that I’m going to jinx it in some way because things always end up being good for the moment and then end up going bad for me in some way. I like this speed in which things are going. When she told me we should take a step back I don’t think she realized how much that right there alone meant for me. I like how we are really getting to know each other to the best of our abilities the best that we can. I like it. I enjoy it and it makes me happy. In a weird way I feel like this show has brought us a bit closer yeah sounds weird but I love the fact that it’s like were watching it right next to each other. We laugh at the same things were usually thinking the same things at certain parts. Its cute as an be. I’m trying my best to refrain from talking about the future or anything like that because I know how saying things like that can overwhelm a woman or scare them. I’ll let things happen in the moment and happen one step at a time. I don’t expect anything to happen I can only hope you know and I just know that if anything is meant to happen then it will. I’m just going to continue to be me and become closer friends wit her. If there is a future for us then so be if not then wel that would suck but basically I know not to expect anything. I like her alot and I’m sure she knows that. I could write about her all day long trust me but I gotta refrain you know I don’t want her to feel like she has to live up to be something or everything tht I want becuse I don;t think that she relizes at all that she is doing that all by just being herself. I have a good feeling. This is a huge challenge and I know can over come and conqure it. I know we can. and we will. Cause in the end if we do start to date or whatever then yes thats amazing. Maybe we will be best friends for awhile first. Maybe we won’t date which would suck I’m just saying that no matter what happens its going to be good. I just know what I want to happen. And I hope that what I want she wants to and hpefully we will have that in the future. Until the time is right and here great friends we will remain. And I’m as happy as I can be from it.